Day 6!

            

Good evening everyone! I hope that this blog finds you safe and happy tonight. The snow is still falling here, making me want to grab a book and snuggle to my hearts content. I actually can't seem to get warm enough tonight... I am writing to you in a fur lined jacket and mittens. :-) I woke early this morning to go meet with my Palmer Lake Book Club at the library and discuss the book that we had read, as well as various other topics. I am by far the youngest woman in the group, but I don't mind that much. I find that I have a thirst for tales of "how life used to be" and my fellow group members have plenty to share! One woman has even started her own book of memories of sorts. She takes time to sit down and catalog her memories and events in her life so she may pass it on to other generations in her line. She has even broken it down into chapters she said, the funniest one being about all the bumps, bruises, scrapes, and general clumsiness that has happened in her family. I thought of how wonderful that would be, to be able to sit down and read the trials and tribulations of my great or great great grandparents. To learn of the way life was back then and realize exactly how much the world has changed from then. I would love to do the same for my great grandchildren, who knows, I may turn out to be a great writer! ;-)

After the book club meeting, I checked out the next book for us to read and received my prize for reading in the adult reading program the library had going on. Only to find out that I need 4 more books to qualify for the grand prize drawing of the Kindle and only 3 days to read them in! I have just finished one book, 3 more to go! :-) I came home with a pulsing headache and ready to make my breakfast.

Left Over Dinner Refrigerated

1/4 Lemon

1/8 Watermelon

Bunch of Red Seedless Grapes

1 Orange

1 Apple

My attempt was failed by the fact that I put the leftovers in the fridge uncovered and it seemed to have spoiled, so every sip I took was laced with bitter taste of rotting vegetables. So, I quickly decided that it was late enough in the day to make my lunch instead. Since I was starving, it would be better anyways due to the increased amount of vegetables.

 1 Apple

1/2 Tomato

1/2 Lime

1/8 Watermelon

1 Peach

1/4 Orange

1/2 Cucumber

6 Carrots

This mixture was definitely more appeasing to the mouth and the lime gave it a great unique kick! I had made enough for that small glass as well as a to-go bottle. I downed that glass with some sinus medication in hopes of kicking my increasingly pounding headache. It eventually dissipated enough for me to go run the few errands that I needed to do today. Despite the snow, I got done what I needed and headed directly home. Once home, I still had a full to-go bottle left of lunch so I have been sipping on that all afternoon and evening. So, now dinner again tonight. I am full so I will not be wasteful. 

Last night I realized that it may be entirely plausible that I would willingly walk away from cigarettes. I assume that a bonus of doing this juicing is an increase of the senses. My smell has increased to rival those of a pregnant woman and my taste has definitely gone through some changes. I can no longer find the taste of cigarettes enjoyable as I have before. They taste like nothing but chemicals filling my lungs, and I dislike the taste so much that I am rarely making it past the first one or two drags. To further the point and play devil's advocate with myself, I argued with myself (yes, I talk to myself a lot) that if a am so strong-willed and minded to be able to give up something that has been a center of my life since I was able to nub my first solid food to death, why not something that has only been part of my life for 8 years? The addiction factors are similar if not identical. Needless to say, my healthy self argued with my addicted self and came to the conclusion that I will continue smoking until I can stand it no more and throw them away. If I was to quit cold turkey, the addicted to food and smokes side of me would surely win over my healthy side. I have accepted and relished the possibility that I may be smoke-free at the end of these 60 days. :-)

I have lost another pound!!! YAY!!! I can now take off my "fat" jeans without unbuttoning or zipping them!!! I am so excited!!! On that note, I was kind of brought down by a general lack of belief in me and the fact that I wouldn't be doing this if I didn't believe in it. I have done millions of diets, and every new fad that has been thrown to me. Nothing has worked or has hurt my body so bad that I was forced to stop it. On top of that, why do I want to continue to cram my body full of unnatural chemicals that my body has to figure out how to break down? Again, I have done my research and found that this has scientific proof that it will not kill me and that it is healthy! For all of those who believe that this is just another "diet"... what ever you chose to eat right now is also a "diet" choice. I am just altering my diet, I am completely changing the way I live my life, how I view food, and how my brain tells me what it wants to eat. As for the ones of you that hold the opinion that I will just gain all this weight back as soon as the 60 days are over, I will not allow it! I will never again be ashamed of how I look, hate shopping because nothing fits, or constantly feel guilty about eating or what I choose to eat! I am exercising religiously at the local YMCA on top of walking my dog for 30 minutes a day, all in an effort to retain my skin's elasticity so I won't need plastic surgery to fix the folds of skin hanging off my body. 

Let me be clear-- I am extremely proud of myself for doing this for my health and future. I AM MAKING A LIFE CHANGE!!!! That entails guts, motivation, and dedication! All of which I have been lacking the past 3 years of my life, which led to excessive weight gain and dangerous blood pressure. Never again! I absolutely refuse to die from anything relating to an unhealthy weight and lifestyle! If you have a negative opinion of what I am choosing to do, please do me the favor of keeping it to yourself. I am not making any one else go through this, it is a personal life choice. I need only motivating and encouraging people and comments around me at this point in my life. I am now taking all the negativity that I have heard in the past 6 days and adding it as kerosene to my fire to push me and motivate me further through this journey. 

I thank every single person that has been there and supportive throughout this endeavor!!! You mean the world to me! Thank you for continuing to read and experience with me!!! See you tommorrow!!!!!!! <3